Vrrrrooooooom.

I feel like everything is changing so fast I can’t even write it down before I feel something completly new.  One minute I can’t handle life and just want to crawl into a hole, i feel useless, i feel broken (but not broken enough) I feel tired. The next I’m happy, I’m flirtatious I’m hopeful and life is good… what is up with this?

God is challenging me to grow, to trust, to be ok with where I am, and I’m trying, and sometimes I’m succeeding, right at this moment I feel good. I cleared the night of distraction to have time to hang out with my friends and get a ton of homework done. But by 10pm tonight I may very well feel desperatly alone and hurt.

I do feel the need to post the broken cup metaphore-I realized the other day a good way to sumarize how I feel about my broken-ness. I WAS broken. That isn’t the problem, but I put myself back together. Think about a cup, what is the purpose of a cup? to hold water of course. If the cup can no longer hold water then it is broken. It’s a mess, its in pieces and it needs to be put back together or discarded.  I was broken, back in the day I was so broken. But because there was no other option I put myself back together.  This is ridiculous now and I don’t feel like typing it

I’m a sucker for rings and babys…..