Disclaimer.

w00t woo. I am not Kate Brown, sorry if you are Kate Brown and I stole your name for this blog… I just need a place to be honest, I feel like most people “out there” can understand that, I have blogs, two other blogs to be exact, one from my way past and one I update somewhat occasionally often.  But people know me, people read them and as infrequently or randomly as that is its gotten me in plenty of trouble over the last few years. I also have a journal, which I write in openly and honestly. But it feels good to get stuff OUT. Flung onto the interweb with abandon, who knows,  maybe some dashing 20something will find this, read this and fall in love with the real me. Maybe this is my destiny.

Maybe thats what I’m searching for, satisfaction. Its fucking all around me, money, friends, good times and late nights, boys, sex. Its everywhere and I don’t want any of it, because I’ve had it, I’ve had my so called fun and I want to feel good, I want to be beautiful when I’m shitty, I want to be alive.

I want so badly to believe
“that there is truth and love is real”
And I want life in every word
To the extent that its absurd.